my body is scampering from its state of affairs

Ok so the shots are going well, some hurt like heck and others I can hardly feel. But evidently my hips think otherwise. They don’t really want to move which makes walking a tad bit difficult. I have compromised and am doing somewhat of a shuffle. I know they are mad because they told me and I explained it was not my fault and to blame my ovaries so now those two are no longer speaking. My hips thought maybe I could ask my stomach to take over the injections so I said I would try. Well that was a bad idea because my stomach said it was taking the lupron injections and WOULD NOT be taking any other shots. At the same time my arm started screaming that it was tired of giving blood and for my hips to just shut up and take one for the team. You don’t even want to know what my Va-JJ said (it had something to do with what the doctor could do with his little ultrasound camera). So I had to report the bad news to my hips and now I think they might completely stop working and I will have to drag my butt around on the asphalt all day. Alas, a day in the life of in-vitro.

Tomorrow is Stim Check #2. As with all of the stim checks we are hoping to hear that my follicles are growing and my blood estradiol (E2) levels are rising. I have no reason to think that things are not progressing as they should but with each appointment there is always the anxiety that something has gone terribly wrong and we have to stop. I know this is normal with many areas in life. You work so hard for something that you desperately want and there is always the fear that someone or something will take it away. I feel that in-vitro is so terribly taxing because it spans so many areas of life; emotionally, physically and financially. But we will get through whatever comes our way; no matter what.

Anyone can give up; it's the easiest thing in the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, that's true strength. - Unknown