That thought briefly crosses my mind as I sit here feeling my temples pulsate with each beat of my heart. My hair hurts. My pupils hurt. I think I even heard one of my teeth cry out in pain. Today might be the worse day so far headache wise and I have no idea why. Could it be the hot fudge sundae and peanut butter sundae I ate last night for dinner (hey I couldn’t decide), could it be the caramel flavor candy corn I ate for a snack two different times today (I swear it tastes just like my Nana’s pralines AND its fat free, Target baby!!), could it be the partial heath blizzard I ate for yet another snack around lunch (shut up it was partial)….maybe? Or perhaps it is simply the Lupron or what I like to refer to it as "the drug that makes me forget my name". I am having trouble remembering EVERYTHING. I walk around in a sweaty state (I swear I am sweating like a chubby fella chasing a runaway doughnut hole) of confusion because I can’t seem to get my thoughts wrapped around any one thing. Words fail me about every third sentence.
Long Paaauuussssseeee, Shorter Paaauuussssseeee, Wait another longer Paaauuussssseeee …What was I writing about again? Silence……. the crickets chirp.
Oh yeah, the Lupron. It is a powerful drug and I hope it is doing its job. We shall soon see. Now off to bed to rest my, what feels like 55# noggin and to close my excruciatingly tired eyes that actually sting from being open and exposed to air. I never knew air could be so painful.
One last thing, I get to draw up and inject my first shot all alone tomorrow morning (Karlis is in Bama for the night because of class and hockey practice). Yeah, yeah I did ban my husband from the IVF lab but at least he was in the house if I had some horrible problem like spilling the entire bottle of Lupron (I swear if this happens I would desperately lick it off the floor, told you my thoughts were not the most dependable).
IVF ROCKS!
1 comment:
Michelle you are cracking me up. I belive the drug is working in preparing you to be a parent. The things you talk about (not remembering anything, sweaty state, general confusion)are all a part of being a parent. You blame them on the drug now, but soon you will blame them on the children. Billy and I have done that for oh, about 10 years now. You and Karlis are certainly in our prayers.
Tonya
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