Lupron is beginning to make me mad (+ mean)

SOOO glad to have Labor Day off today because the side effects have begun. My head is in a constant state of dull achiness plus I am beginning to spot some. Plus, I CAN’T sleep! Plus, Plus I have HOT FLASHES!! I am beginning to wonder exactly what cruel things my body is going through. It feels like it is yelling back at me “Stop it, dang it, just stop”. It obviously does not like being forced into a menopausal state. The lurpon is also making me a little aggressive, agitated, ticked off and I really don’t care what I say to whom. Not so good. Last night as I was lying in bed at midnight staring at the ceiling I realized I was envisioning a banquet size long white table full of knives. Definitely not a normal thought, now if I had said I was “envisioning numerous Coach Purses” we would be onto something. In saying all this, I have decided to just not go through menopause. It is no fun; so why do it.