Will be a long day

I am sitting outside the doctors office waiting to do my blood draw. It's been a long week with constant thoughts about being pregant or not being pregnant. I still have so many pregnancy symptoms but I'm on so many hormones. It's the constant issue. Which is actually making me feel this way??? And I feel desperate. I was actually thinking last night I wish I could steal some blood with a high hsg and trade it off as mine. That way I don't have to end this if that is the outcome today. Crazy crazy thoughts. So anyway, I will post later.