Round Two

We are at it AGAIN. This is the day I have been excited, nervous and anxious about since we had Kiyah. Tomorrow we go to our in-vitro doctor and discuss our "options". A flood of memories come back. The constant questions of what if it happens again for us and what if it doesn't. What if we do all the preparation and our seven (five day old) embryos do not survive their frozen state. What if we go through it all and get nothing and we have wasted all that money. To be honest, I am so sick of asking these questions. There is one good thing about doing this now. Maybe we will be successful and never have to do it again. Then the questions will stop. Finally. Silence.

I called and got my appointment and the receptionist said that I would be considered a "new patient". This immediately ticked me off. Me, a new patient...are you kidding me? I gave these people a good 6 months of my life. I gave these people a great amount of money. These people have our seven babies hanging out there in a frozen state.....and I am new? I don't think so. I have been there, done that and have a child to prove it. I am family. I am a repeat VIP guest. I am someone that boosted their success rates. I am anything but "new". New is scary. New means you have no idea what you are facing. New means anything I am not. So.....this is starting out great, huh?

So I will try and post tomorrow what we find out. I know there is a complete physical, woo hoo! Not sure about blood work but I imagine so. Not sure about looking at the woman bits but that could be expected too. Really anything goes at these appointments. I wouldn't be surprised if they asked me to do the splits. I could sense this was something they wanted to ask before but never did. I am ready this time.

My hips have silently started screaming. They are scared, frightened and asking me to consider my thighs instead for hormone injections. They are not team players. I don't blame them. Karlis will have to polish up on his shot giving ability. Maybe it is like riding a bike. Let's hope so cause I will be the one to test this theory out.

On another note Kiyah is great. Karlis and I are greatly enjoying this age. She does have some of the drama that goes along with 2 year old children but for the most part she is a lot of fun. Talking up a storm and repeating everything you say. LOOK OUT! We do live with a hockey player with broken English at times. She has learned a lot of Latvian. It is so cute to hear her count. Such a joy and blessing she is. I would do in-vitro 100 times over just to have her again. I hope I can say the same with this next cycle and that we will reap the rewards of a new little one(s).