Let the worrying begin

For some reason the day before an ultrasound is my most nerve-racking. I can do ok from day to day and then when it is time to check on everything I get nervous all over again. I most hate worrying because what is going to happen is going to happen. It is out of anyone’s control. I have to remind myself of that daily. But anyway I almost feel like we did before we took the pregnancy test a couple of months ago. I would rather just not know and assume everything is moving along nicely. I guess it is all normal.

I still don’t feel great and even though it can be somewhat miserable I am thankful that at least I feel something. It gives me hope that things are still ok. I still am struggling with food. I have more food aversions than I knew possible. That has been really hard for me because I generally love food and can always find something to enjoy. I can’t even stand to see food commercials. I have to hide under the covers like it is some scary movie when one comes on TV; I look like a nut! I understand this should get better and I look forward to the day. I still enjoy sleeping as often as I can. Indigestion is something that has been occurring more often but has not been too bad. I am still hiccupping on a daily basis. I am beginning to wonder if that is something I will do daily for the next 7 months! Wow I can’t believe we might only have 7 months left.

So the ultrasound tomorrow should show the baby measuring around 8 weeks. I don’t think we will hear the heartbeat yet but that’s ok as long as we can see it on the ultrasound monitor. Karlis has a hockey game tonight but will come here afterward so he will be here to go with me in the morning. I don’t think he would miss an ultrasound for anything; he will be a great dad. We still don’t talk about the baby much because we are still nervous something could go wrong. Karlis has suggested we don’t get too carried away with baby things until after the first “trisemester” is over. I don’t know if he has school work on his brain or he is just confused with the pronunciation of trimester. Either way I have started saying this too and our doctor will probably think we are two hillbillies when we let this slip when talking to them. Oh well, I am sure they have heard worse.

Guess that is it for now. I will update tomorrow with the results of our appointment.