We lost one of the twins over Christmas break. I went in for a routine ultrasound on December 28 and Baby B no longer had a heart beat. Needless to say it broke our hearts. Karlis has been in Canada for THREE weeks so I got to basically deal with it by myself. Rough times. And let me tell you....I have words I can put here. Words that would make us all cry within seconds. Words that will break your soul to pieces.....But I am not going to do it. I am going to cherish the one baby we have left. Things happen for a reason, I know this. I have to accept this or I would go insane.
So......on to happier things.....(not really)
My health hasn't been the best since this happened. My blood pressure goes from extremely high to extremely low. My temp has been elevated. The right side of my face and tongue went numb and my right arm. I have had blurred vision. And headaches off and on. Things have just been a little weird. So my IVF doctor is sending me to a neurologist on Monday. Wednesday we will have another ultrasound. I have not seen this baby since the 28th. I have been a little anxious. But when I saw it then it had a strong heartbeat of 170 and was moving its little arm buds around. I have no reason to think anything is wrong but you know how that is. I am so ready to get through the first trimester. I am around 10 weeks and 3 days. Almost there.
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